Blog – REDCON1
Choose Your Hard

It never ceases to amaze me how easy it is to get off track. 

I recently went away and like a good girl I prepped all of my food while I was out of town – I just didn’t get to eating all of my meals. I also found myself substituting small things here and there, which I know, especially where I am in my journey, is not OK. I can’t sit and wonder why I’m not seeing better results when the glaring answer is that I failed to follow my plan the way it was written for me. Why is it we are so quick to stray when it’s all spelled out for us? It cannot get any easier than this (save for a live-in Genn feeding me my meals—could you imagine?), so why is it so hard to consistently stay on track?

Even when my food is cooked and measured and portioned in those little baggies that take over my freezer, I still pause at each meal and sigh, “Do I want to eat this?” In reality that’s not the mind frame one needs when trying to lose weight. This isn’t let’s eat whatever taste good or whatever we want, because let’s face it, that’s what got us into trouble in the first place. Or whatever reason you are where you are and are looking in the mirror unhappy. Losing weight SUCKS. It’s not easy. It’s not fun. It’s hard. But being heavy is hard. It’s hard on your body and you may feel worse about yourself. So, think of it this way, you are at your own cross roads and you have two directions to turn. Both suck, both are hard. So, which hard do you choose? Because at the end of the day you have to be happy with yourself. Choose your hard. 

I know it takes incredible patience to have a child. I give SO MUCH credit to our coaches for having the patience with us—yes, essentially their big children—and being supportive through it all. As much as I sometimes dread check-in, because it forces me to be honest with myself, I find I need to hear criticism from my coach more than I like to admit.

When I was with Bombshell years ago I used to skip check-in because I was ashamed. This time, even though I’m not always happy with my week’s progress, I never avoid it. I need her. I need to hear her words—her praise, her frustration—each week, because when I’m at my lowest, her responses lift me up. Thank you for that, Genn. They say our worst enemy is the enemy inside ourselves. It’s true. We are our own worst enemy and we need not look past the mirror to find the issue. I still have a hard time admitting it’s just me. I need to stop making excuses. I become frustrated when I don’t see results as quickly as I would like. I just need to be patient. Patience is hard, which is why it’s a virtue. I didn’t gain the weight overnight. It will take time to lose it. I must trust the process. Easier said than done. But I can do this. I will do this.

Having Bombshell on my side means more to me than I could ever say. Every day, happy or unhappy with my progress, I am grateful for Genn, Shannon, and my kickass Bombshell sisters. You help me remember that I am not alone. That positivity is the answer. Having an incredible support system is the answer no matter who it is. FAITH is the answer. I can and WILL do this.

Like most things in my life, it’s taken me a little longer to get where I need to be. College: 5 years. Marrying my stubborn husband (I love you!): 12 years come January total time together. Having my first little one: 33 yrs old. I suppose I wouldn’t be Wendy for this to come easy or fast. But like everything else, I refuse to quit. And I will get there. In Wendy time.